It's Saturday morning and I'm almost ready for work. I have a ten hour day ahead of me to talk to people, yeah! I do love my job, it's just the fact of being anywhere for ten hours straight is not very fun. And the talking to people part is not always the highlight of my day either. Well enough about work. Last night I played poker for the first time in my life, it was fun but at the end it was down to two of us, me and and another. I got really nervous and folded a couple of times when I shouldn't of. There were some that were not happy with me but I was sure what to do. It was a really weird feeling, that feeling of all eyes are on you, how are you going to make this happen? I don't know how people can live under that kind of pressure, I'm sure it's learned and I'll probably have to learn it someday. The art of preforming. Preforming is a srtange word. Everyone has a differant thought of what preforming is.

A new day is dawning

We all want to be something, weather it's a musician or a street sweeper, a doctor or a farmer, we all want to be something. Why I wonder? What is it about becoming something that makes us feel accomplished? Is it the approval of those around us that drives us? Or is it the sense of the power of having a title that makes us beat? I will be the first one to admit to have this same longing inside of me, that little voice inside that tells me to be more. It's all around us, a feeling that we have no control, we keep asking our selves are we strong enough? What is the thing that makes a person feel in control? Is it the title, the money, the friends, the appearance, or just merrily mental? All I know is it's different for every one. All at once the world could over whelm us and which way will we run? Before we go running to find those things we THINK we're proud of lets take a deep look inside of ourselves. What makes us happy and what is the thing that puts a smile on our heart not on our face? Don't forget to breath. Reach for love. Follow your heart and find what your mad of. Pay attention to details and change your immediate environment. It is only when you learn to conscientiously relax that you can truly change. learn to trust your mind. The one thing we all need to do for ourselves is listen to our hearts and follow it for a change.