not so nice

All I know is life is very difficult sometimes. I'm in love with a man that does shit I don't like. He don't care about what I think and that confuses me. I have always thought that if you are in love with someone you would be willing to go any thing or give up any thing for that person. David is not like that. If there is something that he wants to do and I don't like it don't matter He will do it any way. What is love and what does is mean??? Why do I tend to get hurt so much by the man that is the love of my life. I'm getting married in one month and I am so not ready. We don't get along all the time and we fight over stupid things and we really don't get each other. So when I ask my self why I'm dong it it is at times hard to tell myself. I just want to be love by someone with all there heart and be the most important thing to him and I don't feel that at all. Will we last?? Sometimes I can't answer it myself. I hope so but who knows really.
Who am I????? What am I doing??? Where am I going?? What do I believe?? I seam to lose focus to easy and forget what I'm about. He really know nothing about me and he doesn't try and find out what I'm about. He's to caught up in his own life to take the time and learn about mine. He has so much he wants to do and not my dreams is not one of them.